My life changed when my thought process changed.

Once I realized who you were, how you were, what you were, and why you were, my life changed.

How I saw, approached, appreciated, and valued you changed.

I read and understood that you were made specifically for me.

I was here first and had the idea that because I was first, you were secondary.

I thought you were expendable and an option because I was here first.

First wasn’t enough because first couldn’t make it alone.

I didn’t value you the way you deserved before I understood.

You were under me in stature.

Your strength was beneath me.

Your presence was an add-on.

Then it was revealed that alone was lonely.

It was revealed that your smaller stature was a stronger base.

I learned that your strength covered my biggest weaknesses.

Me being here first meant nothing; you were specifically created because I needed help.

I could not love alone.

Loving only myself became lonely.

I was good, but you made me great.

Loving you became a goal.

Loving you became an action that made me feel good.

Loving you specifically, because I could not start new love with an old way.

You were specific, you were different, you were what I have never experienced; bringing in a failed experience wouldn’t result in our future success.

I was tired of failing to love the way you needed because I valued my routine.

I admit that what I was used to was not going to work this time.

I had to adjust.

You deserved my growth.

You deserved my specificity.

Because I realized that you were created “specifically” for me.

Why abuse what was “specifically” made for me?

My “ready” changed when I met you. My “ready” changed because I wanted you. My “ready” changed when I matured enough to be specific. My “ready” changed when we met. My “ready” changed when I realized I didn’t want to lose another great thing.

I wanted to do whatever was necessary for you to be with me.  I wanted to do what was necessary for me to be with you.  What I wanted prompted me to do what I needed.

I needed to be specific, throw out the game-plan, and change my focus. I became attentive to what was in front of me as opposed to avoiding what I had been through.

Specifically loving you.

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